First love

How could I not have made eyes with you, had I not had a son from you, had I not been able to keep an innocent soul in mind like you, had I not been able to do all this, everything was going well in my life but one glimpse of you shook my mind or my heart. Diya, when I sat down to talk, I came to know that it is just like a dream of mine. Did she say that she was so far away from before or did she become more scared as if if I am the earth then that sky cannot be seen? But what to do, said I am a human being, heart is mind, bad to understand everything, bad to know everything, why does this heart feel like seeing him, why does he feel like talking to him, why does he feel like sharing some moments with him. 

 I find solace with them, why do my eyes yearn to see them, despite knowing everything that they are going to belong to someone or something, said to be impossible in this life, but why do I miss them, why do I miss them, why sleep I don't know, how can a stranger be in my heart and mind at once, why does it feel as if I have known him for many years, why are you torturing me God, when nothing has to happen then why do you let me know you? Keep on tormenting, anyway, there is such a lovely memory or picture of his that the more you look at it, the more you see it, your picture is better than yours, even if I don't get it, but I come face to face with your picture every time, whether I should talk to you or not. I talk to your picture every time, no matter what I do with your picture, it just keeps smiling, for the first time in my life, after seeing someone, I realized the movie type, Saeed says it right in the film, crying, yearning, emotional. The matter of, what is pain, what is love, now I have understood, somewhere it is not God's work for me, but what to do now, Sayad, it is written in my destiny, what to do now, now someone will like me, now go. You may be destined to feel feelings for someone or yearn for them.