love what yearning

Why does she make me hers for a moment

 And in a moment it becomes so strange

 stings like a nail

 Why do I want that every moment

  needed all the time

 why i love them so much

 how is this yearning

 Sometimes it seems as if she is going far away from me.

 it is completely gone

 Only her in my every breath, only her in every glance

 Since I saw him I haven't liked or seen anyone else.

 I am very upset

 what should i do

 I yearn so much for them

 I came the day before the holiday

 I neither talked to him nor saw him.

 whatever happened last night

 I didn't sleep the whole night because of tension. It would be nice to talk to you in the morning.

 but morning became afternoon

 No call or news from afternoon till evening

 what should I do now ma'am

 She is treating me like a stranger and a stranger.

 They know every moment is yearning for them

 But neither does she come out to look for me, nor does she give time to me, nor does she talk to me. I looked at her every moment and said, call me, I want to speak from the beginning, talk to me, but she doesn't listen to me.

  I don't know what she wants, what to do.

 Do I no longer hold any place in their lives?

 Has he lost love for me in his heart?

 Or he never loved me

 It feels very sad to see me so worried.

 There is food in front of me, I am hungry

 but doesn't feed

 Everyone went to my house, still my heart and soul were in them.

 Ma'am, when he is worrying me so much, does he know this?

 He might not have even guessed that I love him so much.

 I have become hers and only hers and do not want to belong to anyone, can neither think nor get anything from me, but why does she not understand?

Is it only sorrow and yearning that is written on my part?

 Or this is what God and destiny want from me

 I see this unknown and strange behavior of his.

 feeling very bad

 I don't know what's going on in his mind and heart.

 can't i be alone forever

 But this behavior is hurting me even more

 now i think

 let's be apart forever

 Or the destiny would have written something different from them

 or written to forget forever

 Maybe this is not possible but

 this will have to be done

 Because I no longer see that yearning and that love in their eyes, nor does it give me a feeling of belonging.

 Maybe their happiness is in my going away

 So I am ready to bear this distance

 Now I will have to remain whatever I am.

 If it is written in destiny

 the distance is right

 Because I love their happiness more than my own

 If he is happy then I am happy

 Maybe you will also be happy with this decision

 My love for him has become much greater than it was before.

 But now I feel that their love has either diminished a lot or has become a compulsive love.

 But I don't accept that my love should be like a compulsion.

 Ever since I met him, it feels as if I am holding hands with him.

 I have to stay away from them

 forever

 This decision of mine is probably right for me but not for them.

 Because the image of love they had for me is no longer there.